responding to your last post - I wish I was there with you and everything. I miss you a lot. and I know you already know this but you can always shoot me an email and whatnot. I am actually really excited for you to go to architecture camp...I've been thinking about it a lot hahah is that weird? I wish I was going to a 3 week camp. we should skype if you're ever free in the evenings, I want to know what you get to do! but yeah I am super excited to come back and see you and I hope you don't feel so horrible soon. I think it's good that you guys are still going to be friends and no one is bitter. and always remember - what am I doin? OH YEAH THAT'S RIGHT I'M DOIN ME
You know what also makes things better? Listening to 40 Day Dream. There is another girl here who was going to go to Lollapalooza before architecture camp kicked that dream in the face. Camp is awesome though, & yes we should skype!
I am sooo much less horrible-feeling now. Everything is good, I have decided.. especially because I am Drake. Yesterday we were using AutoCAD & Rhinoceros to make 2- & 3d models of sites, & at one point I just started saying WHAT AM I DOIN because it was so complex.
The reason we’re breaking up is, essentially, because, although we’re happy with everything as it is right now, we are the only serious boyfriend/girlfriend the other has ever had, and there is no way for us to know (esp. at 17 & 18 years old) if it will last. We’ve both said we could see ourselves ending up with each other in the future, but at the moment, it’s better to have a friendship that we know we can maintain than to try to work out the complications we know would exist in a college/high school relationship. With him going to college, it’s a good time to meet other people, figure out what we want, and explore a little.
I’m leaving for camp tomorrow, & then school starts, so this is when we decided our romantic relationship would come to an end.